Do I wish to create a separate reality so that I ensure an interest?
I find my imagination more entertaining than the reality before my eyes.
And yet lately, I have preferred to be blind to anything than that which is before my eyes.
Actions equals reaction and with that statement, I place a cross upon my chest.
No longer do I wish to judge.
Moment to moment, I enjoy myself more.
And others are characters worth following in the moment.
Time is not an option when re-wiring the brain to interact in this manner.
A new chapter in the never-ending book of words.
Actions. Thoughts, and self-manipulation.
And once again the subtleties surrounding, take me into a dreamland where you dominate.
In a state of someone somewhere else,
I ponder on the idea of being a part of something that is separate in a reality unfamiliar to my brain.
A comprehension of this fact is difficult or, perhaps, unwanted.
The thinking process swirling downward when my focus has been on the upwelling of nutrients from a place I forgot in a time lost to memories.
Light penetrates dark eyes and I am awoken once again.
Yet I feel like I am endlessly sleeping in a fluctuating reality.
Blood rushes forth from my nose and I am humbled once again.
Alas, inspiration.
Lovely and Limitless.
Emotionally insecure and I am convinced rearrangement is necessary.
All within my reach, I grasp for something in the dark matter of my mind.
Alone. I am free.
Together we aspire to be.
And yet the male gaze is endless. A spectacle of sorts.
And then a separation of senses.
I wish to run to you and yet I know I must stay.
There is so much to learn in the land of liberty.
My drive for knowledge is unending.
I wish to prove myself, yet find myself speechless.
How do I express my thoughts other than through actions?
Perhaps I do not love that which I think I love and perhaps you are not who I think you are.
Pour these beliefs forth in an attempt to recreate the desired effect of my onlookers.
Alas, it is only myself looking into a thin, fragile mirror.
I am all that I will ever be.
Simplicity.