The Party

This project stems back to a horrible experience I had the summer of ’07.  I had moved into an apartment a friend loaned me so I could take summer classes.  After being alone for a while my mind really started to wonder. I became rather existential as most youngsters do and I had frequent panic attacks.  Finally, my anxiety was just a little to overwhelming and I decided to give the counselor at the Student Services Building a visit.  She decided that I should see one of the psychiatrists that was there that day.  After I explained my loss of religion and my existentialism, he decided that I was a bipolar psychotic.  It was the worst experience of my life.  I was alone and scared.  My parents flew in that night and the next morning I was sent back home to visit a doctor my aunt works with at the state hospital she supervises.  It turned out that I was not in fact psychotic nor bipolar but rather anxious and depressed.  However, during the period of time when I was at the peek of my existential crisis, shall we, I had a dream.  This project is a mixture of that very dream along with flashbacks of the meeting with that horrible psychiatrist.  A friend of mine had told me that my dream was very biblical, and in fact the story of a man coming back to life and celebrating with a wedding is in the bible.  Ironically enough I don’t recall hearing that story when I was in Catholic school and this dream happened just around the time I was questioning my religion…hmmm I say to thee.