April 20, 2006

The effect of positivity for projects; the power of criticism while working on creative projects. Accept or reject the input? Parody as a way to subvert the critical gaze.

Bizarre images of the naked form, in extreme closeup. The ideas:

The text writing across the page to put onto projection

Something with a bunch of blood

Vampyric exchanges in the academy, a scene from the film with Lili Taylor: The Addiction

s/m dominatrix outfit? Speaking only in gibberish?

Yes, I speak in gibberish to everyone, but on the projection is the written text, stream of consciousness…spew up blood to speak language? Once I vomit blood, I can then use real words, in and out of real words; can dance around and put a blood cap in my mouth;

(sandy: bird flu; the virus will find a way to travel; like capitalism I say?)

doppelgangers doppelgangers

what would the smell of blood in combination with certain essential oils be like?

Images of me as a child talking in front of the camera. One of those old graddad videos.

Can I think myself into death? Stream of consciousness that leads to death…how do you know when the stream is over?

Project Ideas....

Zoom while moving camera on dolly toward subject.

I could create a vampire language of some sort and show in video all the other languages in hieroglyphs, farsi Arabic, ect…the many many languages and letters. The language of blood…computer language. The death of the body in the language itself???

Porphyria: a possible rationale for vampirism; I could film the process of dying as if being turned into a vampire.

Catalepsy: when the person appears dead…

The eye god of the academy is in the trees. (IMAGE OF THE EYE)

The academy of vampires. (IMAGES FROM THE ADDICTION)

We were the vampires then. When all it took to get a PhD was some sucking up—bloody and stinking wet. Oozing the intellect into infinity. We were the mistress masters of mind and money, manipulating our companions into rapture and adulation. (IMAGE HERE)

Philosophers, painters, writers, poets, dreamers—we were the aristocratic ones who teaches in the dark lit only by candlelight illuminating languages on the page. We learned how to read in turn we learned how to shape the meaning. (IMAGES OF LANGUAGES IN QUICK EDITS)

I have just beheaded my dissertation advisor. (I ENTER WEILDING GIANT SWORD, COVERED IN BLOOD AS IF FROM WAR. GOTHIC WARRIOR VAMPIRE QUEEN OUTFIT)